February 28, 2008
I. Executive summary:
I am happy in my relationship and everyone that doesn't agree with it can suck it.
II. Introduction:
Is Kirk a bastard at times? Yes. Am I an irrational and somewhat crazy bitch at times? Totally. Then what is it that makes the two of us work? This blog will explain the following: why I love him, why he loves me, and why everyone else who has a problem with our relationship can shove it straight up their butt pipe.
III. Analysis of Love and Hate:
I am one of the last true romantics. I follow my heart, and sometimes my heart gets broken, and I've also had to break a few along the way. That's just life. As some of you may or may not already know, I am back with my Kirk. He is my chosen person. He is my lobster (any Friends fans in the room?) I love this man more than can be described in words, but I will try anyways. To me, "love" is the chemical reaction that creates a tingly in the pants, butterfly tummy flip, lustful, dizzy-spinning sensation. Love evokes the feeling that you cannot possibly live without that other person. It's an all consuming emotion that rips at your gut and makes you want to blow chunks if you imagine them with someone else. Everyone has their own definition, that's mine. That's the way he makes me feel. That son of a bitch has made me cry more times than I can count, but he's also made me laugh more than any other person on the planet. I get Kirk. I'm one of the lucky few he's let in, and I feel blessed. Nothing he could ever do would make me hate him, and believe me he's tested that theory. Yes, he's an asshole sometimes, but he's my asshole.
Some may call me a sucker. That's fine, but this sucker is going to suck for one person and one person only. Kirk knows exactly what to say to me to make me realize that we're meant to be together. It took some time apart to really make me understand that he's the one. Suave? Yes. Charming and charismatic? Absolutely. Does that make me a sucker? Sure it does, and I'm okay with that. He tells me that I'm the person that he always imagined he'd be with. And while yes, he's been somewhat (okay, a lot) wishy-washy over the years, when it comes down to it, we both want the same things (babies, love, and all that other junk).
I. Executive summary:
I am happy in my relationship and everyone that doesn't agree with it can suck it.
II. Introduction:
Is Kirk a bastard at times? Yes. Am I an irrational and somewhat crazy bitch at times? Totally. Then what is it that makes the two of us work? This blog will explain the following: why I love him, why he loves me, and why everyone else who has a problem with our relationship can shove it straight up their butt pipe.
III. Analysis of Love and Hate:
I am one of the last true romantics. I follow my heart, and sometimes my heart gets broken, and I've also had to break a few along the way. That's just life. As some of you may or may not already know, I am back with my Kirk. He is my chosen person. He is my lobster (any Friends fans in the room?) I love this man more than can be described in words, but I will try anyways. To me, "love" is the chemical reaction that creates a tingly in the pants, butterfly tummy flip, lustful, dizzy-spinning sensation. Love evokes the feeling that you cannot possibly live without that other person. It's an all consuming emotion that rips at your gut and makes you want to blow chunks if you imagine them with someone else. Everyone has their own definition, that's mine. That's the way he makes me feel. That son of a bitch has made me cry more times than I can count, but he's also made me laugh more than any other person on the planet. I get Kirk. I'm one of the lucky few he's let in, and I feel blessed. Nothing he could ever do would make me hate him, and believe me he's tested that theory. Yes, he's an asshole sometimes, but he's my asshole.
Some may call me a sucker. That's fine, but this sucker is going to suck for one person and one person only. Kirk knows exactly what to say to me to make me realize that we're meant to be together. It took some time apart to really make me understand that he's the one. Suave? Yes. Charming and charismatic? Absolutely. Does that make me a sucker? Sure it does, and I'm okay with that. He tells me that I'm the person that he always imagined he'd be with. And while yes, he's been somewhat (okay, a lot) wishy-washy over the years, when it comes down to it, we both want the same things (babies, love, and all that other junk).
Kirk loves me because I raise not only his wang, but his intellect, imagination, and his ability to be who he is. My only goal is to help him be the person he wants to be. I take him as he is. I don't want to change him, he's just the right fit as he is. Besides, you could never change a man like Kirk, he's not a giant p-word like some dudes that are total pushovers. I have hurt people along the way, and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry. I can say that 10 thousand times and won't become any less true. But the people I've met along the way have lead me to him, and for that I'm thankful.
I am Kirks girl. I'm forever his no matter what happens to us. I will always
be with him even if I can't physically be with him, which hopefully won't happen. No one will love him more than I do. No one will ever love me the way he does. Kirk is not like anyone I've ever met. He's kind, generous, and "salt of the Earth". He's the kind of man that would give you his last dollar if he had to, or the shirt off his back. There aren't strings with him. Kirk loves me for the person I am and not the person I could be. No matter what you think, you don't know US when we're together, you just know what you observe from the outside. He has is issues, so do I, but we work through them together because in the end, it's just us. So what if he bitches about my legs not being cleanly shaved, he happens to likes smooth legs! I like him without a mustache (which when he's got the pedastach he looks like "a dirty Mexican" in Tracy's opinion, which is actually funny because it's true) and I bitch about that, so what's the difference? It doesn't mean I love him any less, it's just a personal preference.Now that I have explained love, I will explain hate, or "haters" as I will be referring a person and not a feeling. A hater is someone that has intense animosity or dislike for something or someone. There are numerous reasons for a person to "hate" on someone. For instance, people may call me a hater because I think that Dane Cook is a cheese dick that deserves to be shot in the street and have his body ravaged by a pack of wild dogs (and hopefully I'm not alone on this one, because c'mon! that guys the epitome of douche-baggery). People "hate" on me for going back to Kirk. People "hate" on Kirk for being an ass to me. Well, I've made my decisio
n and everyone will just have to deal with that. If you have such strong opinions about our relationship and why I "deserve better" or "put up with too much crap from him" well, then you don't know me at all. I deserve to be happy, and Kirk makes me happy. When I'm not with him I'm a sad bastard. I turn into a figment of who I used to be when I'm away from him, I exist, but i don't feel like I'm alive. Nothing and noone can make me feel better. Only Kirk can put me together again. My parents aren't behind my decision to take back Kirk. My mom supports me because she's a nurturing caregiver and wants to be there for her child, but she isn't happy about it. My father is a little more difficult. He's your typical dad and sees Kirk as a pest that must be eradicated. At one point my mom told me that my dad was "cleaning his shotgun to go kill that son of a bitch!", which of course he wouldn't do because he's a rational person (and rational people avoid jail time if possible). I am more tenderhearted when it comes to my parents, so this is for them, this is what I have to say:
Mom and Dad:
I'm a 26 year old woman that is capable of paying her own bills, kicking butt it in school, and doing her own laundry. I am also capable of choosing who I spend my time with. I'm not stupid. If I thought this was a mistake I wouldn't get involved. I love you, but let me make my own decisions when it comes to matters of the heart. I've got to cut the cord sometime and that time is now. I'll be okay, and if not, I give you permission to take his balls.
To everyone else:
Screw off. I am not your business.
IV. Conclusion
Where I am is where I want to be. My decision is what's right for me. I'm not concerned about what's right for anyone else except for me and Kirk (and anyone else that doesn't piss me off on a regular basis). I have chosen my path, although rocky, it's still my path and I'll walk it the way I see fit. I will put up with a lot of bullshit from people that love me, but if you truly love me, you'll stay out of my way. So, in conclusion, I love Kirk and no one is going to change the way I feel.
Mom and Dad:
I'm a 26 year old woman that is capable of paying her own bills, kicking butt it in school, and doing her own laundry. I am also capable of choosing who I spend my time with. I'm not stupid. If I thought this was a mistake I wouldn't get involved. I love you, but let me make my own decisions when it comes to matters of the heart. I've got to cut the cord sometime and that time is now. I'll be okay, and if not, I give you permission to take his balls.
To everyone else:
Screw off. I am not your business.
IV. Conclusion
Where I am is where I want to be. My decision is what's right for me. I'm not concerned about what's right for anyone else except for me and Kirk (and anyone else that doesn't piss me off on a regular basis). I have chosen my path, although rocky, it's still my path and I'll walk it the way I see fit. I will put up with a lot of bullshit from people that love me, but if you truly love me, you'll stay out of my way. So, in conclusion, I love Kirk and no one is going to change the way I feel.
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